Taking steps forward

During my trip to PA, I found myself giving permission to weap while Lynn was not around. As I spoke to my family with questions they had, I seemed to use some consistant phrases…. “The time when Levi was taken away from us…..” or “When America World took him away…” or “The day was lost Levi…” I wondered if it was healthy to say these words to myself. I realized, YES! It feels as though he has been abducted or if he has died. I struggle not to speak of him as though I had held him and he were my own. We are required to destroy all photos and information on him. When a child dies or is abducted…. at least you have that last picture to look at. As much as I find myself desiring to look at his picture, I’m not sure if it will do any good for me or any of the family.
Keep us in prayer. The only thing we have received from America World has been a letter acknowledging our letter of severing ties. We were to get a letter of their reccommended refund. That letter has yet to come…. if ever. Please pray for wisdom and healing.